Bailin Studio

He left a paper trail…
The Erasing • 2015 – 2019
JACKSON HEIGHTS • 2019

JACKSON HEIGHTS • 2019 • Charcoal, Pastel, Colored Pencils, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 59 x 75½ inches [150 x 192 cm]

GRADUATION

GRADUATION • 2018 • Charcoal, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 69½ x 82½ inches [177 x 2107 cm]

PATIO

PATIO • 2018 • Charcoal, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 52 x 54 inches [132 x 137 cm]

Reflection

REFLECTION • 2018 • Charcoal, Acrylic, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 54 x 81½ inches [1137 x 206 cm]

GAZEBO

GAZEBO • 2018 • Charcoal, Acrylic, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 83 x 93½ inches [210 x 237 cm]

TRICYCLE

TRICYCLE • 2018 • Charcoal, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 78 x 83 inches [198 x 211 cm]

PODIUM

PODIUM • 2018 • Charcoal, Acrylic, Colored-pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 83 x 91 inches [211 x 231 cm]

THE TOAST

THE TOAST • 2018 • Charcoal, Colored-Pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 82 x 94 inches [183 x 226 cm]

INLAWS • 2018

INLAWS • 2018 • Charcoal, Colored-Pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 89 inches [183 x 226 cm]

FORGOTTEN • 2017

FORGOTTEN • 2017 • Charcoal, Colored-Pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 83 x 84¾ inches [211 x 215 cm]

BOUQUET

BOUQUET • 2017 • Charcoal, Colored-Pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 74½ x 83¾ inches [189 x 213 cm]

GHOST

GHOST • 2017 • Charcoal, Acrylic, Colored-Pencil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 74½ x 83¾ inches [189 x 213 cm]

PARTY

PARTY • 2017 • Charcoal, Pastel, Colored Pencils, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 81 x 83 inches [206 x 211 cm]

WORLD

WORLD'S FAIR • 2017 • Charcoal, Pastel, Colored Pencils, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 81 x 81 inches [206 x 206 cm]

505

505 • 2017 • Charcoal, Pastel, Colored Pencils, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 81 x 83 inches [206 x 211 cm]

COFFEE CUP

COFFEE CUP • 2017 • Charcoal, Pastel, Acrylic, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 73 inches [183 x 185 cm]

PASSOVER

PASSOVER • 2017 • Charcoal, Pastel, Acrylic, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 107 inches [183 x 272 cm]

HALLOWEEN

HALLOWEEN • 2016 • Charcoal, Pastel, and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 78½ x 81½ inches [199 x 207 cm]

LAKE

LAKE • 2016 • Charcoal, Pastel, Acrylic and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 79 x 85 inches [201 x 216 cm]

NEW HOUSE

NEW HOUSE • 2016 • Charcoal, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 80 inches [183 x 203 cm]

RAKING LEAVES

RAKING LEAVES • 2016 • Charcoal, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 79 inches [183 x 201 cm]

LAMP

LAMP • 2016 • Charcoal, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 79 x 84 inches [183 x 208 cm] •
Private Collection, NC

SOFA

SOFA • 2015 • Charcoal, Oil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 79 x 84 inches [201 x 213 cm] •
Private Collection, NC

RED TIE

RED TIE • 2015 • Charcoal, Oil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 72 x 84 inches [183 x 213 cm]

FLOAT • 2015

FLOAT • 2015 • Charcoal and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 52 x 54 inches [132 x 137 cm]

PANES

PANES • 2015 • Charcoal and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 52 x 54½ inches [132 x 138 cm]

PILLOW IMAGE

PILLOW • 2015 • Charcoal, Oil, Pastel and Coffee on Prepared Paper • 54 x 79 inches [137 x 201 cm]

I have never thought much about the role memory plays in the preservation and continuity of one’s identity. As an artist who witnessed the waning of my father’s personhood through the dissolution of his memory, I wrestled with how to convey the devastating personal and human experience of memory loss without relying on visual clichés.

The final image in my drawings is largely the result of the pentimenti that moved the narrative along but did not resolve it. Sometimes, instead, the layers of earlier drawings overpower the last, like quicksand under a surface of marks and erasures.

Those unresolved drawings, with stratum of partially rendered scenes and gestures, were the visual and technical cues for the Erasing series. The frustration of trying to define what was unformed yet intimated by what appeared earlier–the back-and-forth process of drawing in and erasing out, having an idea or image revealing itself one minute only to fall back into obscurity the next–mimicked what I saw happen to my father in his heroic effort to recognize in the moment his own narrative.

This series is the result of my final collaboration with my father.

As with his memories, only the ghosts are left.